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Hebrew 12

All correction is painful at the moment rather than pleasant; later it brings the fruit of peace that is, holiness to those who have been trained by it. - Hebrew 12

2010 is the year of correction for me. I am so affirmed by this verse today. Ang galing talaga ng wisdom ng Panginoon. I agree that the first 6 months of these year is so painful. I cried my heart out parang every day of my life that time I was getting off some spears in me. Ung tipong napapaiyak ako kay God ranting out tama na po dugong dugo na ako Lord. And before I knew it august na pala and iba na ang takbo ng panahon ngayon I'm kinda getting at peace now. I can't describe the feeling pero ung tipong akala ko naubos lang ung luha ako pero it's just like napapangiti na lang ako kasi naiintindihan ko na bakit kelangan ko pagdaanan lahat ng masakit na un. It was a struggle to be at peace nun mga nakaraang buwan pero di pala kelangan ipilit kusa pala un dumadating. It was a phase… The Lord has spoken today…

I thank the Lord for letting me follow him. I value every correction He had done in me. I pray that I'll be trained more because I know I'm called to be holy. Nag iiba na pananaw ko sa meaning ng correction. It's not bad after all :) Galing din ni God eh I never come across of this verse when I'm in the phase ng pain kung na encounter ko man di ko maalalang tumatak. Galing din ng timing na ngayon siya bumaon sa puso ko I guess He saying a lot today for me and I think it's an indication I'm entering the peace phase already:) Salamat Lord :)

Better than system restore...

Naalala ko lang... 2006 i was asked to write an essay why i want to be a missionary... Naisipan kong hanapin ung kopya ko nun... Eureka I found it!!! (share it to you nalang at the last part of my blog)

Reading it again made me feel... eto un e... eto ako... para akong puzzle na nagulo nabubuo muli... i was reminded un teaching sa community about forgetting the covenant with the Lord... Na minsan nalunod ka na pala sa agos ng panahon at di namalayan na tangay ka na pala sa dagat ng pagkalimot...

Buti nalang magaling ang Panginoon... Magaling pa siya sa nag imbento ng system restore ng computer... Magaling ang Panginoon ko magpaalala... Magaling ang Panginoon ko mangulit... Magaling ang panginoon ko tumanggap muli... I guess the Lord wants me to remember this as I allow Him to restore me...

So blessed I can't contain it

So much you've got to give it away

Your love is all for me to live now

You are more than enough for me

Truly God blessed my life so much. As I reflect on my past, I am so grateful on how God transformed my life to the woman He want me to be. Before, I never imagined that I would find this great joy just by being in love with Him. He conquered me. Day by day as I walk my life with Christ I strongly believe that He embraces my life and guides me so much. I live my life with great joy and I feel so special to my Father’s eyes.

Being so blessed is not enough for me to say that My God is so great. I can’t contain the joy that I’m experiencing right now. With this, I want to share the great life I’m having with other people especially to the youth. God made a big difference in my life, and right now I want to respond to the call of being God’s instrument in making difference to the life of other people. I want to be a witness and testify of God’s greatness. I want to be a storyteller of Christ. I want to be His instrument in spreading His word to every place that God wants us to go.

He’s more than enough for me. And right now, I just want to stand up and accept His calling. With all of this, all I want to do is to give my all to Him, to serve and love Him to the fullest.

Follow you

Whoever wants to serve me must follow me.

Last night I had a wonderful dream, I was in a CLS tapos may talk. My Lord reminds me how to be His follower through my dream. God reminded me of two words: Christian and Kristyano. I realized it summarized my existence here in the world. As Christian, I should have Christ always because without CHRIST - I Am Nothing. I am lost without the Lord. As Kristyano, like what Fr. Gustillo told us:

Read as: KRISTO YAN

He reminds me Christ lives in me, Christ is in me. I should take care of my life if I love the Lord. My life should manifest the greatness of the Lord and not of the world. I am bless to be Jesus' follower. I thank you Lord for the reading today.

Life's Equation

Sabi ng college blockmate ko pag tawa ka daw ng tawa ngayon, malamang bukas iiyak ka naman ng sobra. Pag masyado na kaming masaya hihirit yun "ayan iiyak na naman tayo bukas at mananahimik nalang ang lahat". At para nga naman kami pinaglalaruan ng panahon,today ang saya saya ng scores namin sa trigo bukas luluha naman kami sa physics. She was implying na: 'Wag masyadong masaya dahil babawi yan bukas. Pero sa palagay ko, "Ang lame naman nun di naman siguro ganun un" Pero minsan napapa-isip nga ako baka ganun nga siguro… Gash!!! Nabiktima ako ng pilosopiyang iyon…

Naalala ko noong mga nakaraang taon na maraming pagkakataon nun na ang sarap ng tawa ko, ang saya saya ko at di ata maubos ang kulet sa katawan na parang wala nang bukas pero tanong ko bakit ngayon nalulungkot ako? Bumabawi nga ba ang panahon?

At kung isusulat ko sa isang equation ang statement na to marahil ganito ba ang ibig sabihin nito?

Happiness = Sadness

Therefore?!

Or

Ganito nga ba to???

I realized di naman sadista ang Diyos ko. He wanted me happy at un lang ang pangarap nya para sa akin. The Lord wants me to cherish every moment I smiled and laugh out loud. Para 'to sa mga panahon na malulungkot ako para may babalikan ako na sadyang magpapangiti sa akin. Para kung ano mang sugat na malalim ay di na magiging ganun kasakit kung baga pang antidote. Ung happy moments and even ung hindi, bigay ni God lahat un. Sa di mga magagandang nangyari… sabihin nalang din natin part pa rin un ng buhay… I guess nangyari un para maunawaan ko pa ang halaga ng buhay.

Pwedeng ganito siguro ung equation ng statement na un:

The things I'm trying to do right will cancel out my mistakes from the past as long as I make it right with the Lord.

So therefore I conclude my equation can be stated like this:

Happiness + Sadness = Fullness of Life

binalbagan experience

Mission Area # 2 binalbagan... tinamad na magblog pictures nalang haha

A picture paints a thousand words...

Iloilo mission trip

Awesome visayas...

So blessed, I can't contain it...

So much, I've got to give it away,

Your love taught me to live now...

You are more than enough for me...

I remember few years ago, I was asked to write an essay about... Why do I want to be a missionary? When I reflected on it... Naalala ko ung lyrics ng kantang ito... I realized four years ago that being a missionary is not something I just wanted, it's more than that... It's my God who called me. I'm destined for this.

I could say im my missionary life madaming pa rin up's and down's but at the end It was still the same God who wants me to experience life to the fullest. Right now, my heart is overflowing of love and joy. sobrang siksik (kita sa katawan may evidence) liglig sa kaligayahan.

Even though, sa trip na to maraming times na i'm travelling on my own. Feeling ko eto ung mga times na sinosolo ako ni God. I'm too blessed to be so worried. Worried where to go, what to expect in that area, sino mamemeet... too blessed kaya erased na lahat ung worries ko. I'm so happy for this year's mission trip kasi special kasi tong trip na to sa akin alam kong di lang ako basta basta pinapunta dito, alam kong sobrang pinagdasal :) I felt like singing kay God ng You changed my life in a moment... :)

Thank you Lord for the gift of mission. I love visayas... Awesome na awesome creations mo Lord... The people, THE FOOD, the sceneries... the experience :) Awesome... Thank you Lord for this moment with you :)

follow my trail...

Trip with the Lord Day 2: Everything's ok, everything's alright...

I woke up this morning exactly 6am... Yes... trying and still striving to discipline myself... I guess after a month... I would really form this into habit :) para di nalalate sa meeting (magsmismile na KFL team hehe)

I thanked the Lord for the brand new morning and he spoke to me: "It was not you who chose me, but I who chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit that will remain, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name he may give you." His words are too affirming :) So inspired to start the day... I asked the Lord to bless my day... It's an exciting day... I don't know what will awaits me, i don't know who will come, haven't met them before. I just entrusted my day to the Lord :)

After breakfast, we went to the farm. Then after an hour, dumating na din sila... Kahit painot inot (tama ba? paunti unti meaning nun) around 15 yfl came... Praise God... nakahinga ako... And 5 cfc's came din to help us up :) Wow great start :) We had our SLHT/ preparation for the SKC and JKD for tom. After the SLHT, everyone really found our KALIPAY (JOY) in serving the kids... Jesus will make us happy as we serve...

Now time to rest, i could really sing: "everything's ok, everything's alright..." but... I forgot the kids praise steps of Jesus in my life hehehe (thanks to Khyme, thanks kay smart bro at kay skype video) But kidding aside, "everything's ok, everything's alright coz' i got Jesus in my life" :)

Pupunuin ng mga bata to tom :) SKC session area and our SLHT session area

Malawak na play area tom :) thanks sa farm ni tito ponet and tita kit:)

Upstairs :)

The rest house :)

The farm :)

Realities of kids in iloilo- Discussion group 3

Group 2

Group 1.... at ang uso daw dito sa iloilo... in young age nagjojoin sila ng frats and gangs... para mag gala

Tito nonoy and I went back home sa pototan after the SLHT...

maaga pa so i had a quality time with myself and God na mag gala sa plaza....

Food trip alone :) Chicken rolls daw masarap naman

Sneaking... hehehe nacrave sa jumbodog hehehe kumain sa plaza...

Trip with the Lord Day 1: Defying Gravity

Exactly 4 pm, I defied gravity :) for one hour i was up in the air malapit kay God... Namnam na namnam ko paglisan ng manila... My seat is by the window... sa ilang beses ko nag air trip ngayon lang ako maobserve ang mga cummulus clouds ng maigi... I felt that God wanted me to see how special it is to be up there...

Last year, it's my first time to land in visayas... and i could say it's a great blessing to be back in visayas after a year :)Like last year, ang mission partner ko si God at syempre si iniego ang aking laptop... Paminsan-minsan may nakakasabay ako along the trip and after one area we part ways :) I'm blessed to be back here in visayas. To bond with the tito's and tita's na nakilala ko last year and excited din to meet new kapamilya's sa mga new areas na ngayon ko pa lang pupuntahan. It's a month trip lang pero I know it will be an awesome one :) This trip is so special to me because i know it's not just an assignment for me to go here, nor a privilege but God hand-picked me to return here and blessed me as i prepare myself for this trip. It's special because after a year, it's my first time na gagawin ung kid camps sa areas :) God is placing everything sa tama nya kalagyan... I guess that goes for me also :)
Before the mission trip, ramdam na ramdam ko pagyakap sa akin ni God and God intensifies it more, now na sinosolo nya ako :) I'm excited for tomorrow :) We'll have our SLHT... gearing up talaga ang tawag dito kasi tito nonoy said we are expecting 100 kids sa saturday whooooaaah buti wala na akong uric acid problem at makakapag sing sing sing na naman ako to the highest level :) pray for us here in iloilo :) I'm excited to see more God's greatness :)







Defied Gravity

my guide to understand the kids in visayas... at sana maintindian din nila ako... hehe

San Jose church... tama nga ba??? malapit lang to sa house nila tita kit :)

My Shepherd’s Voice

Two weeks before the WKC, I was able to talk to Father Gustillo and asked him again if he could celebrate the Sunday mass of our Kids Conference. He smiled and told me “hmmmm paano ko kaya kakausapin ang mga batang iyon… Magdala kaya ako ng puppet?” I smiled and told him why not father?! Fr. G told me, “you know what that Sunday reading will be about the Good shepherd.” When I heard that, I got more excited I felt that it will be an awesome weekend indeed.
That Sunday, Fr. Gustillo came early. I saw him walking towards the stage area. I approached him. He asked me how many kids that had attended. “Around 500 father.” Then he replied: “500? Hmmm it was more than I expected.” He asked me to gather 5 district coordinators with 10 kids each from their area. I went out of the hall. I saw Tito Ric from Laguna with his kids they are all set for last day activities. I told him to see Fr. Gustillo at the hall. Then Tito Jimmy from manila who just had breakfast with his kids, I also saw Tito Dennis and told him to gather 10 kids from Nova. Tito Allan was resting at the sampaguita hall with his delegation that time I also told him Fr. G’s instruction. On my way back, I saw Tito Roel and asked if he could gather 10 kids. 10 minutes after, they were all there. Listening attentively to Fr. Gustillo’s instructions, He asked them to make a unique sound and let their kids memorize that sound.
With Fr. G’s signal during his homily, the kids stood up and quickly looked for the sound made by their coordinator. Fr. Gustillo said if you are familiar to the voice who is calling you, you’ll follow. During that homily, I realized that I heard this parable since I was a kid. I used to join bible study for kids and this is one of the popular stories ever since. The lesson of the story never changed and it will never change. I realized I’m like a sheep. I might be lost along the way and got distracted. Looking for my way back but my shepherd knows me. He looked for me and took me to His arms again.
It was great reminder not just for me but also for all the kids. In their young age, they are reminded to obey the people that God send to guide them. Obeying the people who loves us will keep us from harm and make us a better person. It is also a reminder to the parents, coordinators, heart champs, fulltime workers and mission volunteers that like the shepherd in the story must also be vigilant and responsible in taking care of their sheep. God entrusted the kids to us to love and guide them as they grow up. God is really so smart to end the conference with this message. It is something that we’ll carry on the whole year round. Our God is our shepherd and He is our awesome God.

Di pa po ako ready...

Last night, while finishing some wkc stuff bigla nalang ako nakatulog... Malamang past 11 na din nun kaya dinalaw na ako ng antok... Mejo humid kagabi mejo mainit dito sa kwarto... Nang biglang nakarinig ako from outside na parang prusisyon ng nag nagprapray ng hail mary and then parang may nagpark sa tapat ng mission house... Thinking it was past midnight, sabi ko weird naman nun... Kaya nitry ko bumangon to peep sa window at my side... pero feeling ko nakabangon na ako pero bakit ganun parang di parin ako nakabangon... I tried to move my legs... I know na move ko pero parang di pa din... Then i realized, i might be dreaming pero bakit ganun parang totoo at gising diwa ko... I can even see my laptop at my side... I tried to shout... Shout at roxy my roommate... pero walang lumalabas na boses sa akin... I struggled for awhile... Natakot ako...Gising diwa ko pero di talaga ako gising physically. Feeling ko katapusan ko na panu kung di ako magising... Then, I said Lord I'm sorry po wag muna di pa po ako ready... Then, biglang nagising ako... Naluha ako... Naisip ko bigla paano kung di ako nagising... I thanked the Lord that moment... I opened my bible diary to act of contrition naalala ko kasi talk ni fr. gustillo... Before i went back to sleep... I said Lord pwede na... Ok na ako...

As i give up... My Lord pulls me up...

Last week, my foot is aching... I thought it was just an ordinary sprain. I thought it was good to eat vegetables especially my favorite: ginisang munggo... Thinking it was healthy for me, i ate plateful of it... I ate it for lunch, dinner and dinner day after... My foot kept swelling... Ouch!!!

I went home last holy Wednesday. I told my ate that i have a swollen foot. Thinking, it was just an ordinary sprain. My ate asked me some questions and answered it... I showed her my foot... Then she said.... You are having arthritis... try this medicine if you feel well then that's it: Arthritis... Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!!!!!!!!! i'm only 27!!! I'm in deed in denial... But there it goes... Arthritis...

I realized, i'm not getting young and i'm not living healthy haaaaay... Sometimes, I really need to learn things in my life in harder way before it will really sink in to me... and i guess this is the message of lent to me.

I should guard myself... take care of myself before it's too late... I should live my life healthy and pure. Listen well... Heed the warnings around me... Stop on the red signs. He wants an unblemish lamb as an offering like what he asked his prophets before. My God wants my all... Lord guide me as i try hard to give my all...
I love you Lord...

mahal kita kasi kasi...

* napanood ko kagabi sa going bulilit tawa ako ng tawa at ang cheezy ng lines... nakakatawa talaga mga pilosopong in lab!!!



Bangin ka ba? Kasi
Nahuhulog na ako sa’yo, naman kasi
Unggoy ka ba? Kasi
Sumasabit ka sa puso ko, naman kasi
Pustiso ka ba? Kasi
You know I can’t smile without you
Pagod na pagod na ako
Maghapon ka na kasing tumatakbo sa isipan ko
Kasi naman kasi

Mahal kita
Bagay tayong dalawa
Papicture nga
Para mapadevelop kita
Hindi tayo tao, hindi rin tayo hayop
Bagay tayo, bagay talaga

Papupulis kita, kasi
Ninakaw mo ang puso ko, naman kasi
Kuto ka ba? Kasi
Palagi ka sa ulo ko
Naman kasi
Apoy ka ba? Kasi
Alab-alab I love you
Magsalbabida ka nga
Kasi baka malunod ka sa pag-ibig ko
Kasi naman kasi
Mahal kita
Bagay tayong dalawa
Papicture nga
Pare mapadevelop kita
Hindi tayo tao, hindi rin tayo hayop
Bagay tayo, bagay talaga
Kamukha mo si Papa P, Papa P (bingo)
P Papa P, Papa P
P Papa P, Papa P (bingo)
Exam ka ba, kasi
Sasagutin kita agad-agad, naman kasi
Drugs ka ba? Kakaadik ka naman kasi
Kulangot ka ba? You’re really hard to get
Posporo ka ba? E di posporo rin ako
Parang match
Kasi naman kasi
Mahal kita
Bagay tayong dalawa
Papicture nga
Pare madevelop kita
Hindi tayo tao, hindi rin tayo hayop
Bagay tayo, bagay talaga
Pustiso ka nga, kasi
I really really can’t smile without you…

God is entering the dungeon of my life...

Ang sarap din umupo at makinig na lamang... I just got home from the lenten reco. Before going there, i really set my mind na makikinig ako... May pagka ADHD kasi ako e. What I did, umupo ako sa front row same time assist na din the technicals of the reco. We had two speakers, one was fr. Gaston. He talked about conversion and forgiveness... Na forgiveness comes after conversion of the heart. Na never nag impose si God never namilit na bumalik sa kanya but He always wait for us. We had freedom pero true freedom is the capacity to do good. But when it is abused and caused me sin... I'll be enslaved by it and it is like natrapped in a quicksand... No other way but to hold God's hand to pull me up. It's a grace from the Lord... the gift of conversion.
After Fr. Gaston, it was fr. johnny go. Inabangan ko talaga si fr. johnny kasi sobrang natutuwa talaga ako sa kanya pag nagtatalk siya. Anyways, the title of his talk was God in the dungeon... Title palang na stuck na ako. He asked us to examine our live... Is my life a bowl of cherry or am i in the pits? when i answered the survey, i got 2 at some areas and 3 sa iba... Di ko naman kasi consider na super i'm in the pits pero di naman na ok na ok... Mejo leaning nga na parang asa pit e pero sabi ko sa sarili ko i don't want to dwell on sa negativity ng life ko pero yes, it was a struggle and keep on working on it. Ang galing lang when fr.johnny said sa si God inallow nya maging loser siya nun nabubuhay cia sa earth he allowed to be crucified not because he is a weakling but he wants na samahan ang mga losers like me. Naredefined sa akin ung meaning ng failure... I might be a failure somehow pero God doesn't want me sa dark dungeon ko... Handa siyang madumihan just to enter my dungeon... Unti unti nang lumiliwanag dungeon ko sinasamahan kasi ako ni God... And it is always a decision for me to keep the faith or not... But i want to keep mine... I pray na samahan ako ni God palagi... never loose me again...

talent + effort(squared) - ranting + konting puyat = blessing

Last week, sa gitna ng masalimuot na mundo... may dating kahousehold na nakisuyo sa isang proyekto... He called me up kung pwede ba daw ako mag edit ng video para sa farewell ng boss nya... sabi ok lang basta ok ung materials at storyboard kasi ayaw ko na mag isip... He asked my rate kasi nga racket nga un... sabi ku hmmmmm di ku talaga alam rate ko kasi usually ung videos na ineedit ko mga favors lang para sa mga friends... Kung sa totoong buhay mejo mahihirapan na talaga sila makakakuha ng editor for his project kasi rush... Friday mabibigay ung materials monday ung event... hmmmm mejo napaisip talaga ako pero i was thinking kahousehold ko naman to dati and i guess it's an opportunity to share my talent... So nun friday, he handed me the raw materials... hmmmmm mejo madami pala hahaha 7 videos haha naku magic pala gagawin ko haha... o well sabi ko cge bahala na... It was friday and he said his boss wants to meet me saturday afternoon for a draft (huwaaat) pero napangiti lang ako bahala na ulet hahaha. He told me ok lang yan careerin mu nalang may TF naman un sabi ko well ok din un kasi makakahelp ung TF para bumili ng ilang stuff na kelangan ko. So come sat... major disaster pa kasi ung version ng premiere ko di tumatanggap ng mpeg4 sooooo i have to look for cs4 installer haha patay na lunch time na alang pang draft haha and i got a "client meeting" ng 4pm i made a draft na uber short lang and ayun nimeet ko nga sila... Bahala na daanin nalang to sa charm... When I had the meeting, kinuwentuhan ko nalang kung ano makikita nila at tinanong tanong kung anu gusto nila makita... whew lumusot din ang meeting... Ayun nun sunday nagkulong lang ako sa bahay at kumareer... the same time naghahanda para sa talk ko the next day... One thing I learned from doing rackets... I should know how to balance my life... At alam ko kung ano priority ko... Cut the story short yey!!! nadeliver ko naman ang project ko whoooooooo Magic talaga hahaha

But the best thing with this is nagkaroon nga ako ng TF... And super natuwa ako kasi nabili ko ung dapat ku mabili was able to upgrade iniego yey mas mabilis na siya ngayon at nakabili na din ako smart bro di na ako manghahagilap ng WIFI ng may wifi... and finally a part goes to my savings yey... Siguro nga minsan binibigyan ako ni God ng ganitong mga opportunities to be a good steward of my time and resources... Bawasan lang ang pagrereklamo sa buhay I guess mas madami pa akong matatapos na mga bagay bagay... Pero praise God talaga sa blessings na ito :)

First blog hoping it's not the last

Hmmm ... kuya xavs is peeping as if naman di nya babasahin later hehehe... I'm not a good blogger malamang kasi tamad ako magsulat hahaha... Well i think is a good start when someone challenges you(bullied haha joke lang) to blog hehe!!! Usually i don't usually express my thoughts in writing but somehow i felt why not try it... for a change... I used to have blog space before. I think it was updated 3 years ago... So di na siya pasok sa term na "updated" haha... oh well i'll keep this short muna hahaha di pa ako ready for the wkc meeting later... ciao for now..